IN AN PERSONAL INTERVIEW WITH PEOPLE.COM KANYE BLAMES HIMSELF FOR HIS MOTHER’S DEATH… JUST A YEAR AGO KANYE WEST MOTHER DONDA WEST DIED DUE TO COSMETIC SURGERY. THE HIP HOP STAR SITS DOWN AND TALK ABOUT THE TRAGIC ORDEAL WITH PEOPLE.COM
“I feel like I moved to California, then my mom moved to California, and she did stuff she wouldn’t have done if we’d stayed in Chicago,” he told People.com. “If I’d never made it in the music business, it never would’ve happened.”
It’s natural to say “what if” but Kanye could drive himself crazy by doing so. Hopefully he’s receiving professional help in dealing with this tragedy.
“I didn’t do any interviews after my mom passed,” he told People. “I wasn’t ready to speak about [it]. Now I’d rather talk it through than commit suicide. I’m super devastated.”
He said that making his new album, “808’s and Heartbreak,” helped him deal with his sense of isolation. And he revealed that he’s lonely. He broke up his fiancée, fashion designer Alexis Phifer, earlier this year.
“It’s lonely at the top,” he told reporters Tuesday at a London listening party for the new album. “Losing my mom, having no woman in my life to support me – I feel like I’m on my own and can only express it through my music.”
He told People that he wants to have kids. Now he has to find the woman.
“Someone who really cares about me. When I’m in a club, girls are super-calculating, planning every step.”
WOW THIS IS SO SAD, KANYE IS A REAL TALENTED GUY & ALL I CAN SAY IS DON’T RUSH LOVE, OR JUST DON’T JUMP INTO ANYTHING BECAUSE YOU ARE LONEY. FINDING A MATE IS HARD ESPECIALLY A PERSON WHO CAN RESPECT, BE HONEST AND LOVE YOU FOR YOU. IN HIS BUSINESS IT’S REALLY TOUGH TO FIND THAT ONE, I MEAN THERE ARE WOMEN WHO ARE NOT MATERIAL GIRLS WHO WANT THINGS OUT OF LIFE. WHO WANT LOVE, KIDS JUST A REAL FAMILY. I MEAN WHEN YOU FIND THE ONE YOU WILL NO, I MYSELF KNOW I AM A REGULAR WOMAN, I’M A STRONG WOMAN, BECAUSE I WAS RAISED IN AN ENVIROMENT THAT MADE ME THAT AWAY. SO WITH ALL THAT SAID LOVE WILL FIND YOU IN DUE TIME. NOW I HAVE BEEN ASKED WHY I CAN’T FIND NO ONE LIKE YOU IN THE CLUBS, TRUTH BE TOLD AIN’T NO LOVE IN THE CLUB. I DON’T CLUB, I DON’T SMOKE, I DON’T DRINK, I AM JUST A WOMAN WHO IS A STRONG PERSON & YOU SUPPOSE TO STICK BY A MAN OR YOUR MATE WHEN TIMES ARE HARD.THESE GIRLS THESE DAYS ARE NOT ABOUT THAT, THEY ARE ABOUT MONEY & WHAT THEY CAN GET FROM YOU. THE CLUB IS NOT WHERE LOVE IS AT, SO THIS IS NOT ABOUT ME,I’M NOT TRYING TO PUT MYSELF OUT THERE AS A CANIDATE. BUT TO FIND A GOOD WOMAN THE CLUB IS NOT THE PLACE. HAVE FAITH KANYE AND HE WILL WORK EVERYTHING OUT FOR YOU, PUT IT IN HIS HANDS…